Russian Roulette by no-means-of-escape, literature
Literature
Russian Roulette
Russian Roulette
Even if it had been a real gun,
all of us would have still taken
that chance.
Each individual wanted to be
the one,
because it meant our pain
was slowly dulled away
by alcohol and laughter.
We were already gone,
yet willing to take it
one step further.
Death
that's what we wished upon
our hearts. I felt it creep
into the air, unwavering,
unwanted.
As our eyes glazed over,
the sun was rising.
We chose to sleep.
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A Time Paradox
I watch the music breathe
life into you
Always fighting tears
animating limbs
voice shining clean and
clear
You choke back emotion
swift strumming of chords
soft and smooth
mouth
hovering before the
microphone
Your life happens here
existing only for the moment
you give yourself away
My smile is sad
Somewhere in time
my seventeen-year-old
self
falls for you
hook
line
and sinker
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Enough
Wandering the chambers of my heart,
I stumble from corridor
to dead end. I'm lost
in a labyrinth of emotion, time,
all that we've gained
and lost.
At each high-rising wall,
I meet your gaze. The same face,
a different person underneath.
One is crying. One threatens
to end my life. One says
absolutely nothing.
I run round and round in a sea
of familiar stares, each facet,
each façade chasing me down.
While blind logic leads the way,
I find a version of you
that has forgotten me.
It is here that I stop,
because I simply cannot bear
the sight. It is me, I say,
a friend. You turn, open a door,
and point out m
In Another Time
The sweetest of honey
could drench her lips,
but you would never care
to taste its richness.
She hides among the
hills and valleys,
the highs and lows
that leave you gasping.
The heart inside her
struggles at your glance,
squirms in a prison
of bone and hope.
She gives it away
exclaiming,
"Destroy the damn thing
before I do."
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The Others
It was never me.
We danced and
laughed and
pretended,
but only for a second.
I never had
the body,
the words,
that spark of
genius and
sex and
rock and roll.
I felt it
slip through my hands.
A beauty that
could not be found.
Only a fragile
something that you
stole and broke
in the dark.
My heart.
There was always someone else.
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The bottle of wine had been empty for quite some time. I kept glancing at it every few minutes, as if Bacchus himself was going to descend from the heavens and fill the bottle to the brim. No such thing happened, unfortunately. Instead, I sat on the couch, hands folded neatly in my lap. I heard music playing softly from the kitchen, and deciphered the lyrics that were drifting my way.
The moonlight
Shines down interstellar beams
And the groove tonight
Is something more than youve ever seen
He stumbled out of the bathroom and over to the couch, sitting right next to me, but for some reason it wasnt close enough. I felt like I
I picked up my guitar and wandered out to the balcony. Everyone else was asleep; however, I had slowly traded the day for the night. The stars were comforting because they had nothing left to do but shine. They would listen when no other would.
I strummed aimlessly, trying to find a song inside of me that matched how I felt in that moment. What did I feel? Hopeless. Estranged. Careless. Alone.
It was strange, the way he silently sympathized from across the room - how we could lock gazes and instantly know what the other was thinking. It was frightening sometimes, because usually he was the last person I wanted inside my head. It was a bizar
The Best Morning by no-means-of-escape, literature
Literature
The Best Morning
It wasnt the first time we had slept in the same bed. We had spent countless nights on his twin-sized bed in his old apartment, cramped and clinging to one another so one of us wouldnt fall to the floor in the middle of the night.
Our first real purchase as a couple was a queen-sized mattress. We were too poor to afford a frame, so it simply laid on top of a box spring on the floor. I had put brand new red cotton sheets on it, and it had been there waiting for us once night came.
That morning, I woke up and rolled over to find him soundly sleeping. For a few minutes, all I could do was just stare in amazement. This morning, this
I Could Save You by no-means-of-escape, literature
Literature
I Could Save You
It was the third day.
Wed been locked inside the small room for that long. I couldnt remember the last time I slept. I couldnt sleep anymore. Not when the zombie apocalypse was a real thing, instead of something that only happened in my dreams.
There had been a few scares - dull moans of rotting vocal chords, rough scrapes of flesh against cement, and the incessant banging of dead tissue against steel that happened the night before. Or was it the night before that? There was a physical sense of time, with the old mans watch still ticking away, but no mental sense of time. Minutes were hours, days were seconds. And wh
Kill the Messenger by no-means-of-escape, literature
Literature
Kill the Messenger
Kill the Messenger
I come before you
and it grieves me to say
that I am a victim of
my own empathy.
Whether I am next to you
or a few states over
I can feel the grief and pain
stretching across the miles
or maybe just minutes.
Or am I mistaking your pain
for my own?
It is hard to tell the
difference nowadays.
I ignore the scattered pieces
of my own life because
it is easier trying to fix
someone elses heart,
than it is fixing my own.
Sometimes things that break
cannot be fixed.
But I spout words of
encouragement, optimism,
maybe even wisdom
to those around me
to hide the fact that I
am not the person everyone